I first started with the desk. Cleaning a desk can be quite difficult. You never quite have the courage to throw things away. Each paper I remove is a memory, each a precious moment in time forever lost, except in our remembrances. Some meaningless, others precious. In my cleaning, I came across a small little poem someone gave me to keep me going at a difficult moment in the session. I'll save this one, because it clarifies the truth of the power that is within each of us. I read it and re-read it. I think to myself how lucky I am to have been touched by someone who cared. All the darkness in the world and yet it could not shut out the light that came from this one person in her little poem.
Before I did the radio interview with my hometown talk radio station someone asked me how I felt after completing the 79th Legislative Session--the so called "session of love." Did I expect to come back again? Have I advanced the purpose that first called me to serve?
What immediately popped into my head and still hasn't left is the Elton John song with the refrain, "I'm still standing!" Here are the words to that song that I was able to pull from the internet:
"And did you think this fool could never win?
Well look at me, I'm coming back again!
I got a taste of love in a simple way.
And if you need to know, while I'm still standing, you just fade away.
Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did.
Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid.
I'm still standing after all this time,
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind.
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah!
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah!"
And so as I leave this wonderful place, walking through the corridors of the capitol for the last time this session. I whistle out loud the Elton John tune that is in my head as I make my way to my car.
As I leave the capitol grounds, I realize that it is there, within the song, that the answers to those questions previously asked, are found: persistence, faith, love, purpose and the will to find or achieve them.
Feeling like a little kid, I humbly count my blessings and give my thanks to God because after all this time -- I'm still standing!